Friday, February 20, 2009

A Different Life

I just keep dropping off the blogging world don't I? name it. I read other blogs at least weekly yet it just seems hard for me to make posting a habit. That might be about to change...I don't know.

I have just joined the other hundreds of thousands of citizens who have lost their jobs due to this sad economy and I'm just now able to type these words without tears pouring down my face. I've never been down this road in my lifetime and even though I've been out of work only 2 weeks I can assure you that I will NEVER forget this feeling. I will NEVER be completely comfortable with my position or the company I work for again, even in my 16th year. I will NEVER be the same. That might not be a bad thing, as long as I find employment soon. I might be the best employee I've ever been, in the future. Right now, I'm just trying to pull my head out of the shell, get up out of the bed in the morning and put one foot in front of the other. Those have been my daily goals for the past 2 weeks. So far, I've met my 3 goals each day - but I promise you - I force myself. I've stood in line at our local job service with people who look like they've worked harder than even me to meet those 3 goals everyday. I've stood in line with a woman who was laid off in October with a severance package of a one year salary (unlike me of course) and wants to now go back to work because her husband doesn't get home until 6:30 and she's "a bit bored". (Yes, I was able to keep my lips zipped.) I've stood in line with men with a baby, and women with a baby; the luxury of a babysitter for a few hours so far out of reach. I'm (1) of a 2-person household, my high school senior being the 2nd. She's the one with a job right now. A weekend job - but a job. She worries...for me, not for herself...and I worry for her because she's worrying for me. I pray - alot. And I know prayer works, so I'll keep praying and I hope you will too. Pray for me, pray for your own job, pray that your family and relatives will be able to continue working, pray for this country, for our leadership, for the millions of people who are so depressed and down on their luck that they can't find any hope. They're out there. I've seen those lines.